Nature

Honestly I think that when nature took something away from my brain, that which would have made me learn all this stuff 20 years ago, it created an ironic situation where I become hyper aware - and analyze the stuff at a level that most people never would. I understand people in terms of evolutionary theory, that's what makes sense, the typical technique of just naturally feeling how everybody else feels barely applies to me. I'm not Autistic, but I'm like half-way there. It may actually be easier to just be straight up Autistic and not care at all what society is up to - maybe - though being straight up Autistic is extremely challenging in other ways from what I've heard.

Here's an analogy: I guy lost the nerves that tell his body how it's positioned. (The American Life or maybe Radio Lab episode.) He had to literally learn how to stand up, walk, etc. He had to use his eyes (rather than Proprioception) to tell where his legs were. That's me. There's something that isn't there, so I'm using the logical side of my mind to do it instead.

You could benefit from a lifting routine.

I suppose appearance may create sort of a shunting effect [on the sexual perception metric] so that it would be critical to have muscle mass at like 100% of normal rather than like 30% that I have now. All of my personality efforts are being multiplied by 0.3. Then at about 120% it's a bit better, and getting higher would eventually lead to diminishing returns on the time investment.

http://books.google.com/books?id=v62U-XJ4QioC&pg=PA729&lpg=PA729&dq=shunting+multiplicative&source=bl&ots=wLVoC6is5E&sig=dE99vb3J2Z1iL9xENlz-le52E3M&hl=en&ei=I-JKTtGHIqfWiAKL_Y2xBw&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=1&ved=0CBkQ6AEwAA#v=onepage&q=shunting%20multiplicative&f=false

Sally wrote:
> Dude, this guy started out as skinny as you.
>
> You should pick up lifting.
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> http://www.reddit.com/r/Fitness/comments/ivyvw/3_years_of_progress/

Bigfoot Documentaries

I'm starting to get interested in documentaries about things that are patently false, like big foot and aliens in ancient Egypt. Maybe it's because the creativity required to argue these points is so much higher - sometimes it becomes interesting. Also, the personalities of people who actually believe this stuff seems more entertaining that the legit scientists who are constrained to stating the truth.

Women, Men, and Instinct

A couple times recently now I've heard women talking about how they are looking for women friends - as if they aren't looking for guys. This is mildly bullshit. Women sometimes have a hard time admitting (even to themselves) that they are just looking for a guy. It's more likely that they're looking for a girlfriend to hang with so they can more comfortably find guys. But, think they consciously don't think of it like that. Women are like birds. They act instinctively. They have instincts designed to draw them to or away from men. They don't plan the result and assemble the actions to reach it. They just keep following the emotion and the instinct. And, if you ask them what they are really up to, you're likely to get something else - whatever they want you to hear basically.



Now just to be fair, I'm not saying guys in general are more or less logical than women, I don't know. I know that personally, I tend to set a goal and then arrange actions to support it. Recently I find myself doing a lot of things women just consider "fun" to reach the goal. So, it's pretty apparent that the women's instinct and emotion has already been tuned to make them find mates, whether they consciously care about it or not. They perform the actions of socialization/mate-finding out of instinct or instinctive drive, and I'm in the process of learning them.

Paternal

Why are humans often organized into paternal societies. Men are stronger on average. Apes fight to figure out who the leader is. So, the male would tend to win. The system has been passed down from our ancestors.

Alter Ego

Her drunken alter ego told me not to trust her sober self (who hides the truth) and her sober self told me the drunken alter-ego is not her. Her sober self lacked the memories of the drunken alter ego, which might mean that her drunken ego has an information advantage?

Pop Culture

I'm researching pop culture to infiltrate the society I live in. Couple of observations... One is that humans really are the weirdest hominids on the planet. Looking down as an alien, I'm not sure what I would think. Two, seeing plasticized Janet Jackson (I think) and Donald Trump together in one show is really disturbing at various levels.